Ok.
Now. This roller coaster I have taken you on about my life I sure has left you dazed and confused and thinking that I might possibly be insane. However, I think I have found the solution. (For real this time) Let me set this up for you and the set up the way my mind got here. Here it is: After much turmoil in my mind about my personal and my professional life I realized a few things. I realized that I am very young, I am very much a violinist, I want to be a musician, I want to calm it down a little and deal with some really hard things I've overcome in my life, I want to teach, I want a masters degree, I want to study with Laurie, I want to get certified as a teacher, and I want to be near my family. In the next breath, I don't want to be in a masters program that isn't right for and is costing me thousands, I don't want to be in debt, I don't want to be unemployed when I graduate. I want a job with security. I want to help people.
So, I started looking around. How can I still study with Laurie? How can I take some time off? How can I? Ahh!
I began looking at different graduate programs at different universities. I checked out Indiana, Columbia, the SUNY schools, and then I came up on NYU. NYU offers a program where you can get your masters in music education and get certified at the same time. NYU also lets you study privately with whoever you want to in the city. Hmm...sound good to anyone?
Kevin still has two years at his school and this program takes about two years. If I could get in and get a scholarship or an assistantship, I could move back home in December, make some money, live with Kevin, heal a little, put myself back together, then move back to NY in August to start a more realistic and fitting degree in an environment more suited to my needs, personality, and career goals, AND study with Laurie.
I knew I'd figure this out eventually, but there is such a weight that is off coming to this realization. I offered this idea to Laurie in my lesson last night and she loved it. She said she would definitely take me as a student again and agreed that going home next semester was the best thing for me.
We talked about how this semester isn't a waste at all but an investment in myself. If I hadn't come, hadn't tried, I would have never known.
So, now what? Apply to NYU. I am going to go down there, it is only about 5.5 miles from where I live now, and talk to the people and find out what the program is about and see if it would be a good fit. Yesssss.
resepi kek kukus coklat
3 years ago
1 comment:
I completely agree about this semester not being a waste. Personal growth and perhaps even more importantly personal understanding are an important part of one's education as far as I'm concerned. You're probably already more mature and introspective than most of your classmates and figuring out what you need to be happy and satisfied can only increase that wisdom, right?
Also, in reference to an earlier entry, you're right about the people with less traditional career paths. The people who collect degrees like baseball cards often times seem so burned out and down. When I thought about it I realized that a lot of the musicians I know who were able to survive the business with some modicum of happiness are the ones who didn't try to make it all happen at once.
In other news, I'm at my new job (basically as tech support) at the Florida Center for Reading Research. It turns out that when the computer system crashes, you really don't have any actual work aside from answering phone calls from irate FL teachers.
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