When the Going Gets Tough, the Tough Get Going.

The overused phrase "everything happens for a reason" can be an annoying little thing people say whenever they want to make you feel better about something that doesn't seem so glamorous or wonderful.
However, I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. For instance, I got put in the worst orchestra here, but I really feel like it is where I should be. When I found out how serious orchestra is taken here at this school I thought about withdrawing. No joke. I have no interest in locking myself in a practice room and learning how to be an orchestral auditionee. In Aspen this summer, my teacher here just laughed and said, "Oh! you're going to hate orchestra at school if you think it is taken to seriously here in Aspen." As usual, she was right.
I cannot even believe how ridiculous the orchestra schedules are here. I came here to study with Laurie and to do the education program, not have my life taken over by orchestra! LORD!
Here's the best part...I really want to be in the same orchestra all year because I have never gotten to play Shosti 5 and I really want to. It is my favorite orchestral piece, well, one of them.
Ok, so here is the everything happens for a reason part. Since I am in the lower orchestra my schedule is so much better. I have more time to make my education connections, practice for my lessons, and do what I came to do.
The only thing that makes me a little sad is that I like to do well at everything. It is tough knowing that I didn't. I really bombed my audition. I haven't had a good orchestral audition experience ever. Sometimes I feel like everyone got on this boat of learning how to audition for orchestra and I missed it because I was in the bathroom or something.
Learning orchestral audition excerpts and actually auditioning is a skill. A skill which I have not honed. I want to learn it so I can help my future students, and so that I can take an audition and say, good job self...see you can do it.
I have a lesson today and am going to talk to my teacher about this. I just cannot believe how badly I was shaking in my audition. I am pretty sure my Schumman Scherzo was one big shake fest. Oh well. Everything happens for a reason and when the going gets tough, the tough get going.
Speaking of tough this Rodney Yee dude on my Yoga Burn video is in ridiculous shape. Woah.